losing is one way to know the living you .

one thing that i'm afraid of the most : LOSS .

lately ,
i lost lots .
i lost my bestfriend in an accident,
i lost trust once , but back again to trust the man,
i lost important items, and not have it back yet , but that's not a big deal though,
i lost my spirit once , but back again to be spiritful,
i lost my hopes , but back confidently to hope again,
i lost those people's cheering eyes at home, everybody's not really living now:'(

those losses ,
are something that life (maybe) wants to teach me about .
how to forgo things in your life without being too dramatic,
how to let go things in you life without being too pathetic,
how to be okay to live without things you once owned .

was hard at first ,
but then , those losses teach me lots and lots .
i lately realize that , i only live once .
i live all my life to know who i am . who i really am .
how strong i am , how shit i am , how cheesy i am , how helpful i am , and so on .
after knowing my self well , then i'll die . and that's it .
so , before i die , i only need to know me well ,
through these ways , one of the way's this losing-way .
and now , i know how to forgo things .
how to handle myself when i know that this and that thing isn't mine again,
how to deal with those losses , and even how to get those things back , in which way , right or wrong , risky or not . now talk about options and preferences . well , yea one thing teaches lots , everything's related in a sudden :)

well, in short,
i know that it's not yet the end of a life when i lose things in life ,
keep on enjoying life , everyday is a new life-adventure .
adiooss !



♥,
cynthia

things on the days off :)

since my partaking-thingy is still on-hold, so automatically i have no particular thing to do . all i can do is just hook here and there with hubby or good friends , or staying at home instead , do some dvd(s) marathon . and at times , i help my mom to babysit my little sister . pick her up when school-out and ride her to her english-course class . pwetty boring , ain't it ? :D

here are some random pictures taken on the days-off :)

this is the picture of my bookstore-smart-shopping,
they were only cost about 17 thousand idr ;)

picking up little sister from her new school

and i kept on writing this and that on my paul smith little note book,
thanky hubby for buying me this cute note book
~ he said that this note book matched my paul smith sling-bag ;)

ps : i learned lots nowadays ,
i learned how to stand-up after some deep-falls ,
learned how to stand-still while things went wrong ,
and learned how to smile while things insisted me not to .
and here i am , heading to be a better better me :)

♥,
cynthia

random pics of the-excellent-up !

russel , carl fredicksen , kevin , dug , ellie .
you're all awesome !

♥,

cynthia

sevenpounds , ♥ ♥ !

i always love will smith's movie .

that's why i love this one too , so much .
s e v e n p o u n d s
and i love his not-too-much muscular body either , grr !
whatta hottie daddy !

yesterday i went out to the cinema w/ hubby, in purpose to watch this movie. actually i had watched a half of this movie on the dvd at home, but i got no point at all and at that time i turned my dvd off and headed to sleep *because this is drama and a bit boring at a first-half*, then i decided to watch it again at the cinema, and in the end of the movie , i could say that i love it so much.

there are some points that i learned and either concluded from that movie , they are :
1. tim saves 7 people because he thinks he killed 7
2. tim abandons his job and actually his LIFE to help people, because he feels guilty afterall
3. i guess it's very hot to kiss a man when he's crying
4. i really hate that killing-jellyfish scene , it's hurt :{
5. no bestfriend is happy to see his/her bestfriend dying, and noone's willing to help
6. i love tim's beach house , deadly !
7. when hubby buy me a diamond ring (i wish , hahaha), i won't keep my eyes on it while we're still in the car , and i won't let him touch his blackberry while he's driving.
8. rosario dawson who plays the emily posa cast was very look alike w/ my hubby's ex , and he said that she was pretty before he knew it , hahaha ! gotcha hub :p


*and this is my smith's best photo taken on the scene:
my hottie daddy ! yeeay ! :D

♥,

cynthia

tooth fairy , please .

The Tooth Fairy is a mythical character depicted as a fairy that gives a child money or gifts in exchange for a baby tooth that has fallen out. Children typically place the tooth under their pillow at night while they sleep. The fairy is said to take the tooth from under the pillow and replace it with money. ( wikipedia )

for the tooth loss ,
but for the tooth gain ?
will fairy help me ?
i can't help this ache,
and i haven't eat properly since this morning . please !

♥,

cynthia

the-i-learn-bearhug .

(last 2 images) courtesy : happythings


Everybody needs a hug. It changes your metabolism. ~Leo Buscaglia
You can't give a hug without getting hug. ~Author Unknown
A silent hug means a thousand words to an unhappy heart. ~Author Unknown

i really ♥ to be hugged .
the big one,
i call it the bearhug .

referring to someone's quotation : a silent hug means a thousand words to an unhappy heart.
i think i vote for it .
it's true .

the last time i got a silent hug , i cried for 2 reasons . the first one, because i was unhappy . the second one, because i was happy there was someone who was willing to hug me in purpose to ease my pain. although actually it wasn't a real silent hug, because he added some words in a very quite voice, they were : "why do we fall ? because we need to stand up and learn", then i sob harder, it was really touching me at my heart . i love it when people give a shot to encourage me, to raise my heart up again . then i hugged him tighter, i told him : "i learn enough .. "
then he sang the three little bird song , "don't you worry about a thing, cause every little thing is gonna be allright .. " till i fell asleep in his bearhug . i lovey bearhug ♥

♥,
cynthia

fancy details ♪

hehe , my magical R-word is everywheeeree ♥
i accompanied my sister buying some notebooks and pencils ,
i found these cutie stickers ,
i bought them and stuck it here and there , lovey that hubb ? :D